urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:4everrelapse4everrelapse4everrelapse4everrelapse2007-12-18T17:32:38Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:4everrelapse:680ranting-sorry2007-12-18T17:32:38Z2007-12-18T17:32:38Z<font color="#ff00ff">I am totally new at all this, but the way I got here was only looking for thinspiration because I have hard time dealing with myself when I weigh more than I want to, when I started reading about those who deal with the feeling I have lived with for years. And it seems as if alot of the people are true about having an ed, some are just wishing they did? For us who have lived in an anorexic mind, a bulimic mind, a mind that is detached from their true self, why would you want to live this way. The daily struggles are not glamorous and although we may feel great when other see us as sick, inside it feels awful. I have been through treatment. I have spent time with psychologists, therapists, I've been medicated, I've dealt with "feelings" I am still anorexic, I still purge, you never recover from this. Why would anybody ask to be this way. If you need to get diet tips, ask a dieter, not someone who is living with an eating disorder. I'm not looking for diet tips, I know them all, Being anorexic for 12 years and bulimis for 18, i have read the books ect. Please don't think I am trying to offend anyone cuz I'm not. It is not my intention, but do know that if anyone wants to talk about what their going thru I've been there, I do love the level of comfort on these communities and I love when I see others with so much in common.</font>